Last week I was rocking Addison before bed and singing "Jesus Loves Me" to her. (her new favorite song!) While I was singing, she started signing "Grandpa" on my forehead. I wondered if she was somehow connecting Jesus and Grandpa together. Right before I lay her down I was whispering to her, and telling her how much we love her, and how much God loves her. As soon as I said "God", she started signing and saying "Grandpa" again. As I laid her down and walked downstairs, something hit me about what had just transpired. God really is like Addie's Grandpa right now! Even though she doesn't know Him as her "father" right now, through Russ and I, God is like her grandfather!
I love to think about my Grandpa Walton and how he loved each of his grandkids so unconditionally. He didn't have to discipline us, he just had the joy of loving us and smiling as he watched us grow. I like to think about God looking down on Addison's life right now, with that Grandfather-ly twinkle in His eye, and just enjoying watching her blossom and learn and grow in our family. I know that there will come a day when Addison will understand and be accountable to God for the decisions and choices she makes in her life, but for today, I think that God is looking at Addison through those twinkling, accepting and non-condeming eyes of a grandfather. How I love to think that God just loves her right now in her own simple way, and I pray that someday we can introduce Addie to God as her own personal father in heaven! What a privilege we have been given.